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So, I am learning a lot about what is apparently called trauma work, per the professional with whom I am working. It is hard. Also, I get the whole "people remembering things" bit, now. Not making up new, imaginary memories. Just recalling a lot of stuff that you had dealt with by not dealing with it but now you kind of have to because processing and stuff. It's a lot of pain, and a lot of anger, and a lot of just being really, really tired. Basically, it sucks. But it's necessary, so there you go.

At this point, we've gotten to being potentially hopeful (not yet actually hopeful), which is quite a bit better than hopeless. Which is good, because there's so much unpleasant reality ongoing, and a whole lot more fun to process. For certain values of 'fun'.