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She is literally following me around the house to make sure I am never alone with my father. We might have a secret conversation, or something.
Also, I really should just secretly tape her because it is impressively persistent how she is trying any and all angles to mess with me mentally and emotionally because she does not want me at the oncology appointment on Monday.
New repeated phrase: "I just want to make sure we are on the same page."
HA HA HA HA HA HA no, fuck you we are not on the same page. Which I deep breathe and do not say and let her convince herself she has made her point. Because she keeps talking. It's kind of impressive. Like, if I carefully only say some things, making sure to push back on her but leave her room to misinterpret, she inevitably keeps talking until she convinces herself that she has taken control and made her point and I am complying with her wishes.
And when she is not following me to make sure I am never alone with my dad, she is following him and hovering over him. So he is never alone with me.
#auntyface
Yes, this is emotionally and mentally exhausting, in case you ask. I'm not a game player. It takes a tremendous amount of energy for me to twist my brain into this mental mode. I am literally under constant assault and I am only grateful that I had enough counseling over the last several years that I can identify it in real time to try to do something to counter and protect myself.
She found it necessary to read an article about atrial fibrillation and dementia to me and my dad while we were all eating something for lunch (yay, he ate!). Have you noticed that she cannot have silence? Well, she can't be silent. It included talking about not sitting too much and how that was important to keep your brain from shrinking. And then she somehow managed to work that into a comment to me that she hoped I was getting enough movement.
She's very skilled. In case the passive aggressive isn't clear, this includes implied criticism of my intelligence, mentation, and problem solving, along with criticism of my physical appearance, activity level, and the fact that I sat with them both while eating lunch. In other words, the fact of my existence. Tl;dr I'm fat, stupid, and should go away. She wants me out of this house and out of reach of any involvement so badly. Nope, not over-reading this. I have outside professional input on that.
Basically, Amanda Rose is correct.
She is literally following me around the house to make sure I am never alone with my father. We might have a secret conversation, or something.
Also, I really should just secretly tape her because it is impressively persistent how she is trying any and all angles to mess with me mentally and emotionally because she does not want me at the oncology appointment on Monday.
New repeated phrase: "I just want to make sure we are on the same page."
HA HA HA HA HA HA no, fuck you we are not on the same page. Which I deep breathe and do not say and let her convince herself she has made her point. Because she keeps talking. It's kind of impressive. Like, if I carefully only say some things, making sure to push back on her but leave her room to misinterpret, she inevitably keeps talking until she convinces herself that she has taken control and made her point and I am complying with her wishes.
And when she is not following me to make sure I am never alone with my dad, she is following him and hovering over him. So he is never alone with me.
#auntyface
Yes, this is emotionally and mentally exhausting, in case you ask. I'm not a game player. It takes a tremendous amount of energy for me to twist my brain into this mental mode. I am literally under constant assault and I am only grateful that I had enough counseling over the last several years that I can identify it in real time to try to do something to counter and protect myself.
She found it necessary to read an article about atrial fibrillation and dementia to me and my dad while we were all eating something for lunch (yay, he ate!). Have you noticed that she cannot have silence? Well, she can't be silent. It included talking about not sitting too much and how that was important to keep your brain from shrinking. And then she somehow managed to work that into a comment to me that she hoped I was getting enough movement.
She's very skilled. In case the passive aggressive isn't clear, this includes implied criticism of my intelligence, mentation, and problem solving, along with criticism of my physical appearance, activity level, and the fact that I sat with them both while eating lunch. In other words, the fact of my existence. Tl;dr I'm fat, stupid, and should go away. She wants me out of this house and out of reach of any involvement so badly. Nope, not over-reading this. I have outside professional input on that.
Basically, Amanda Rose is correct.
I wish I weren't :/
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