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We are at the cannot eat stage, and swallowing anything, including water and ice chips is becoming difficult. Not only does radiation cause inflammation and swelling of all tissues it touches or is near, it causes muscles to constrict, mucus secretions to thicken, and open sores.

Not only is Dad's mouth dry, he has those horrible secretions that make you feel like you are choking, like someone with cystic fibrosis. Any movement of the swallowing muscles is severely painful, beyond just topical mitigation. His voice is hoarse from the swelling.

Not to mention that radiation also causes exhaustion.

When things get this bad, mom usually steps up and stops being horrible. (she has stopped being horrible) But then, it is a situation in which, oddly, she is more in control. Fsck mental illness right in the ear.

Meanwhile, my dad broke down into tears yesterday evening. I'm usually ok for dealing with things, but seeing that rips me up 360 degrees all around.

Man, fsck cancer.